Thank you for your continuous support

Hello everyone I hope you are all well and looking forward to Christmas?.
Another month has passed, 14 months since that fateful call telling me that my beautiful Son and Brookes brother Josh was dead as a consequence of being stabbed in the neck in an unprovoked knife attack.
The pain and shock comes in waves, some I ride like a rollercoaster (always feared them) and others that I just about catch my breath from. The smallest thing can trigger this excruciating pain and fear for instance if I find myself laughing, the shock stops me in my tracks as I think you just laughed Trace WHY, HOW COULD YOU ?? To seeing a new photo of Josh that I stare at for days and ask WHY, WHY WOULD SOMEONE WANT TO DO THIS TO YOU, MY BEAUTIFUL HAPPY BOY??
Everyday is filled with thoughts about life and death, happiness, sadness, compassion, cruelty and the everyday questions in my mind such as how do I manage to keep going and finding ways to make sure that I do?.
Faced with such challenges everyday I ultimately choose to be thankful, thankful for the beautiful memories I have of Josh, his incredible laugh, his attitude to life and the love he had for it. I choose to honour him in the best way I can by trying to stay positive and find solutions.
Reading helps me so much from the latest fictional best seller to Conversations with God and a host of NDE and spiritual books along with the Bible. I am also following the signs that I am being sent and listening to my gut instincts more and more and not allowing myself to be swayed or to doubt myself.
I know without any shadow of a doubt whatsoever that Josh (when he is not busy) is with me guiding me and willing me to stay strong and focused to get justice for him. He helps me to raise awareness to knife crime and knife crime prevention and to help others come together to help make a change in our communities in Josh’s memory.
This month I was fortunate enough to attend a free weekend away at a spiritual retreat which although very hard helped me to focus on meditation and engage more with spirit. I was also asked to read at a memorial service and was blessed to have been so moved by the most amazing chorale experience and was also privileged to have been part of such a poignant mass. I also received the much anticipated notification from the Charity Commission that The Josh Hanson Trust has been awarded charity status and that our Justice for Josh Hanson FB page has now acheived over 28,000 likes which is phenomenal. The more people who like the page the more people see the wanted poster and the higher the chance we will get justice for Josh sooner rather than later. I am told by the Met that they still receive calls so I know what we do collectively works.
So many positive things happen when you guide yourself away from those who are full of anger, bitterness and fear and when you refuse to engage in negativity you find yourself surrounded by love and light.
I would like to thank all of those of you who continue to support us and give me the strength I need to share and raise awareness to our campaign because without you the journey would be so much harder.
Bless you all ❤️??
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