Good morning everyone I hope you are all well.
Every second of the day my heart breaks and every month on the 11th breaks my heart even more, all of the what if’s hit harder because I know in the early hours of the morning 8 months ago today my beautiful boy was murdered in a totally unprovoked knife attack. What if I could have stopped Josh from being taken from us, what if he hadn’t gone out, why did the door men let him and Lucie inside, why wasn’t anyone searched, what if this, what if that, my head wants to explode everyday with what if’s.
Josh was taken from us in the worst possible way, snatched from us, no goodbyes, no time to touch him or hold him, no time for anything at all apart from living life without him from the moment we heard the worst possible thing anyone could ever hear.
The hardest thing to do is to wake each morning and close my eyes last thing at night, it does not make any sense to me and I still don’t understand how I do it.
All I know is when I am reunited with Josh I want him to be as proud of me as I am of him. I want to do as much as I can to help others in Josh’s memory and leave a legacy for him that reflects his pure heart, Josh was a kind, generous and loyal young Man a Man I was proud to call my Son.
Brooke has lost her brother her best friend and her confidant and to see her pain everyday hurts me so much. I know life goes on because we are living our lives in spite of the pain we feel everyday and that is so hard but our faith gives us hope for we will be reunited again and that pushes me forward and helps us to stay strong.
Bless you all for sharing the police wanted poster and for inviting your friends to our Justice for Josh FB page it truly means so much to us. The more people who see the poster the more hope we have of catching SOB the man the police would like to speak to in connection with Josh’s murder.
The three of us from day 1 and until my last breath. ❤️??
