Hello everyone I hope you are well.
I have been without my beautiful Josh for 15 months today and although I move forward his absence and such emptiness comes with me. Life is so very quite without my beautiful Son but I listen to his voice and laughter in my mind and this makes me smile. When I rest my head on his pillow, I know that is where his head would lay, and it comforts me. When I cook a meal just the way he liked it, I remember how much he would appreciate it and that makes me smile. In fact all of my memories with and of Josh make me smile.
I am told everyday how strong I am, being strong comes from my faith and belief that we are only in another room and that the pain and ache I have in my chest is the love that I can not show Josh, in the way we know ‘here’. I show Josh everyday how much I love him by doing all I can to live my life a life that Josh was cheated of, and by working hard to to make the right choices that will bring me spiritually closer to him.
I am also moving forward by doing all I can to get justice for Josh and raise awareness to knife crime. Everyone should want to live a peaceful life, free from fear, free from pain while secure knowing that our loved ones will be safe. So much more needs to be done and I am determined to help contribute and to help make a change for the better.
No one wants to be told that their child has been murdered and no one should ever have to. No one should ever have to experience the unbearable pain and heartbreak that words alone can not explain, yet it is happening everyday.
It is not easy in fact it is heartbreaking, but I promised Josh I would stay strong and get justice and although he is not here with me physically I know he is on another part of his souls journey that never ends and that he is sending me strength and love always while watching over me.
Please help me by sharing the wanted poster and displaying them home and away, we need justice for Josh and we need to know that if we come together we can make that happen.
God bless you always, Tracey ❤??
