The pain that I feel everyday can never be expressed with words alone but I will try. My heart aches with a pain that never eases and my emotions are always up and down. Some days the pain is numbing and other days it is so sharp, but whatever type of pain it is it is there 24/7.
I was woken up this morning by my Mum telling me that SOB was on the TV, my heart stopped for a second as I thought this is it, justice has come. So many emotions flooded through me but the most important one was that now we could mourn and grieve Josh in peace and not have to share him with a murder investigation. Mum then said it is a new appeal. I then felt the waves of desperation as I knew that the wheels had started turning yet again in another new direction on what feels like the never ending journey to do all I can to get justice for Josh.
Social media has been very active today with new appeals and I have also been interviewed by the BBC and ITV news, both of which will be shown at 6pm tonight. To wake up and know no matter how I feel I have to put that to one side and continue to keep my promise to Josh to stay strong and do all I can to get Justice is a challenge but one I will rise to each and every time.
Everyday I see you all share beautiful photos of my beautiful Son Josh and for that I am truly grateful as they give me so much strength because I know that you too look at his face and want the same as I do, to get JUSTICE.
This photo that Lucie Grace shared as a memory popped up amongst the various appeals just now and seeing Josh looking back at me I know he is saying everything is going to be ok Mum, it’s cool ????.
Thank you to each and everyone of you who are behind me, without your continuous support I would be lost.
Bless you ❤️??